February 25th :D

February 25th - hmm today has been a weird day, and i feel rather down about a few things not important though. I just feel (N) about myself, and thaat. ohwell im sure tomro it will be al good again. :D Todaay is the start of lent, no chocolaate orr gum for me, for a timee. Im going to find it hard i sposee, but did it last year so its okay. Alot of people are doing it aswell soo yeah, should bee finee (: i love heldem, and im very happy for her, shes likee the person i talk to wheen im down and if your reading this then thanks :) talks on thee kurbbb and stuuuf :) make me happy. YESSS LIVERPOOOL JUST SCORED, ANDDD NOW I FEEL HAPPPY ;D

23rd February :)

23 February - Todaay has been a good day and im very happy for my best friend heleen who is now with jack (yn) i have a feeling they will last its sick [ amazing ] ahaha heldem (: Tom will take me to the beach soon :/ i love him sooo much! hes my word, :/ duno what i would do without him .. :/ ahah (: i was told to write that (: but today has been a good day (Y) im happy.
OH i love my best heldem <3

22nd February :)

22 February - I suppose today hasnt been the best of days actually (: i have been on a bit of a downer today, for reasons only heldem knows & i cant really say just on here tbh (: but yeah, things are getting better i think. Tom wrote me the most amazing story i love him so much! <- he told me to say thaat :) Im very happy for heldem right now i say things to boys for her and she doesnt no what im saying but i tell her in the end, puppy lovee (8) im feeling it right and i am happy for her. School tomro and im actually not happy about it really nervous :( annd dont want to go but i gues i have too .. (N)

21st February

21st February - Today has been a good day i suppose, (: Not as goood as some others as i got kindof annoyed, a few times today, i dont really even no why? i Supose it was abit stupid, but their you go. I watched a film tonight, about war and it kinda made me think how luccky i actually am & what other people had to go through, :) no one really knows what it was like to live then, and just take thing for graunted, but when you see what actually happens, you relise how lucky you are :) 1 day till school, <3

February 20th

Fridaaaaay - 2 more days of half term left, and really i could do with another weeek; but we dont have onee, so you could say this half term has been pretty sick [ amazing ] <-- heldem ;) ahaha! but yeaaah i have enjoyed myself, and spent it with someee keepers (: My auntiee nearly had her baby today, and i had to baby sit but in the end it just wanst ready to come out (N) i was well exited aswell, but im still happy as tbh & its the waaay i like it. :D

February 19th :)

February 19th - I have been spending alot of time latleeeey with a few people, like heldem & jack tom vicky, and stuuf & i dont think i have actually been happier, thaan right now :) everything feels right for once i spose, tonight - cinema with heldem, jack & ryaaan, it was preeetty sick [ amazing ] :) i had a really goood time, aacttually, they are all amaaazing, & made the night really goood. I dont think i would change anything atm i like it all the way it is, and putting everything bad & things that havee been bothering me, behind me, and just trying to enjoy myself for once, & its working. . 2009 - Start Has Been Great <3

February 18th

i spent the past few days with heldem, my best friend & daisy yesterday :) they we're amazing, and i had a reallly goood timee if im honest (: todaay me and heleen met up with adam, jack, joe, jack, josh, i think that was it ? lol, but it was really goood and had a laugh :) at the moment im really happy, the happiest i have been in a time actually, and i like it, looking foward to the rest of the hoildays & all that, it should be goood, well i hope ;) (yn)

February 16th :)

well i probably wouldn't be writing this if it wasnt for my best friend helen, well heldem, :) i havent really ever had a diaary or anything before, so i suppose this is a gooood thing (:
16th February - today has been a goood day tbh and im Rather happy right now, with most things, and not much is bothering me, like it usually does, stupid things get to me, and i cry, but i havent done for a while its its okay. One thing that is getting to me todaaay everyday, my mum & dad, if they read this is would most likey crush them but their so going to so i supose its fine. I find myself lying to them, alot and i dont like it but tbh, what else am i ment to do? If someone told me then maybe i would try something else, a differrent approach but to me their is no other way, so i guess im just going to have to keep doing it arnt i? If i didnt lie about some things to them, they would do my head in and i would end up crying or being unhappy most of the time. I suppose i dont as much anymore, because they find out most of the time, but its the only way for some things, well at the moment it is . . .